Monday, April 28, 2008

what the hell do I caption this

Nodule: Wilms' Tumor
Blister: Blood clot with tumor clusters
Favorable histology. That's the one "good" in this, although it's really hard to call that good. Not completely devastating, maybe.

I don't know.

I feel pretty god-damned devastated.

I know I can live through this. I know tomorrow I'll get up and I'll marshall my forces and meet with doctors and get second opinions and make a plan.

I know I can live through this. But right now, at this moment, in all my self-involved pain, I'm not sure I want to.

24 comments:

elizabethslittleblog said...

I am so dreadfully sorry for you and family and Little Warrior. You are held in my prayers and hopes tonight.

uuMomma said...

I'm just so damn sorry to hear of this. I wish you strength and hope and the strength of hope.

ogre said...

Caption?

"Kicked in the Teeth" would be my first thought.

I'm so terribly sorry.

I'll hold you all in hope and care as you live through this.

Christine Robinson said...

Damn

I did so hope that this would be over soon for you.

Your village is crying with you.

Christine

ms. kitty said...

Shit. Shit shit shit. Okay, we can do this with you. We're not just interested bystanders, you know.

Lunasea said...

Oh, I so hoped with you for a different answer. I'm so sorry. I'll keep sending out prayers and thoughts for your family and especially Little Warrior.

thisgirlremembers said...

A longtime lurker on the edges of the UU blogosphere, I wanted to add my voice to the chorus. I am so, so sorry, LE. My prayers for healing are with you, your precious daughter, and all in your family.

jess said...

praying praying praying

Earthbound Spirit said...

Aw, crap! Ogre echoes my feelings - though I would have been a bit coarser. Hugs and prayers to you, LW & the rest, of course.

Philocrites said...

Oh no. I think about and pray for LW and you and your family every day. My heart aches for you.

Boy in the Bands (Scott Wells) said...

Even though you can't see us, we're standing by you and LW.

Terri Dennehy Pahucki said...

Oh, dear. I know you only through blog posts, but I am crying with you. And praying with you. And holding you so close. And crying with you. And praying.

My Brand Of Crazy... said...

Oy.
My heart and hope are with you all.
Hug LW for me.
Then have the hubby hug you for me.
Damn.

h sofia said...

I'm sorry your family and LW is having to do this again. Keeping you all in my thoughts and prayers.

kinsi said...

I'm so sorry.

I'd buy you a peppermint mocha if I were in the area.

Tara said...

I am so sorry to hear this. I will continue to keep you, LW, and the rest of your family (and LW's doctors, come to think of it) in my thoughts & prayers. Strength & peace to you.

Masasa said...

From Ms. Kitty: "Shit. Shit shit shit. Okay, we can do this with you. We're not just interested bystanders, you know."

Amen.

karen said...

So sorry. My heart goes out to you and yours.

hysteric cleric said...

I've been praying and crying over your for a couple weeks now, and will continue to do both. The DRE-BFF scheduled me to preach at your church this summer; I hope to see you both then, and marvel at the Little Warrior's resiliance.

(I won't repeat here my reply to DRE-BFF last night when she e-mailed me about the bad pathology report, but it was inadvertently funny--when you need a laugh, ask her about it.)

Earthbound Spirit said...

Dear - my earlier comment was kind of short, because I was crying for you. OK - I wish I could physically wrap you in a big hug. I am continuing to hold you and LW in the light, praying without ceasing...

Random Musings Of My Life said...

My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family.

goodwolve said...

I'm sorry doesn't even begin to grasp how I feel...

James said...

Thinking of you guys a lot...

Best wishes from here...

Shannon said...

my heart and prayers to you.