Monday, January 08, 2007

Cognitive Disonance

Tomorrow, Little Warrior gets her 6 month CT lung scan and abdominal MRI. Today, I'm trying to put together a humor service.

Call me insane.

I guess it's denial of the highest degree, since I don't give this talk til February. What I really feel like doing is sitting somewhere and weeping a bit. But I'm a Mom, with two kids at home, and that tends to be the kind of thing that comes up later in therapy. Theirs, not mine.

On top of this is the fact that she's been dealing with the stomach virus that she caught from her sister. She seems to be better, cross fingers, touch wood. If she throws up again, we have to cancel the scans and reschedule.

My purple bracelet isn't here yet. Thank goodness.

Random thought ... I don't want LW to grow up thinking she's special because she had cancer. She IS special, but for much better reasons. She has a giant scar across her belly. I think I'll teach her that when people ask, she should say she once laughed so hard, she split in two.


uuMomma said...

"Cognitive Dissonance" is the one thing I remember from my college Intro to Psych class. Not sure what that says about me, but it sure makes me like people who use it writing about daily life.

Blessings. I'll be thinking of you and LW and praying you don't need to reschedule.

PS: I really like the splitting in two story.

Ben said...

I wish both you and LW all the best. I have my fingers crossed or (as the Germans say), I'll press my thumbs for you.

Every time I have had to do humor at an absolutely in appropriate time, I always think of Young Frankenstein (Steeen!). The scene where Igor and he are trying to get the body parts. Frankenstein (steeen!) is complaining, "I’m dirty, it's late, this is disgusting." And Igor, with never-ending optimism makes the comment. "Could be worse, could be raining." Thunder and lighting - the downpour starts. Even now, twenty-five years later, I remember my first thought the first time I saw that. At least he isn't dirty any more.

I suspect, being the skeptic that I am, LW's healing color is perhaps pink? I'll be sending pink thoughts today.

All will be well.

Nancy said...

I'll be *literally* sitting on pins and needles while you go in for the scan.

Seriously, you are so in my thoughts and prayers. Very much so.


Christine Robinson said...

Hope it went well