Monday, April 28, 2008

what the hell do I caption this

Nodule: Wilms' Tumor
Blister: Blood clot with tumor clusters
Favorable histology. That's the one "good" in this, although it's really hard to call that good. Not completely devastating, maybe.

I don't know.

I feel pretty god-damned devastated.

I know I can live through this. I know tomorrow I'll get up and I'll marshall my forces and meet with doctors and get second opinions and make a plan.

I know I can live through this. But right now, at this moment, in all my self-involved pain, I'm not sure I want to.

21 comments:

  1. Anonymous10:04 PM

    I am so dreadfully sorry for you and family and Little Warrior. You are held in my prayers and hopes tonight.

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  2. Anonymous10:28 PM

    I'm just so damn sorry to hear of this. I wish you strength and hope and the strength of hope.

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  3. Caption?

    "Kicked in the Teeth" would be my first thought.

    I'm so terribly sorry.

    I'll hold you all in hope and care as you live through this.

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  4. Damn

    I did so hope that this would be over soon for you.

    Your village is crying with you.

    Christine

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  5. Oh, I so hoped with you for a different answer. I'm so sorry. I'll keep sending out prayers and thoughts for your family and especially Little Warrior.

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  6. Anonymous12:43 AM

    A longtime lurker on the edges of the UU blogosphere, I wanted to add my voice to the chorus. I am so, so sorry, LE. My prayers for healing are with you, your precious daughter, and all in your family.

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  7. Anonymous12:43 AM

    praying praying praying

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  8. Aw, crap! Ogre echoes my feelings - though I would have been a bit coarser. Hugs and prayers to you, LW & the rest, of course.

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  9. Anonymous6:38 AM

    Oh no. I think about and pray for LW and you and your family every day. My heart aches for you.

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  10. Even though you can't see us, we're standing by you and LW.

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  11. Oh, dear. I know you only through blog posts, but I am crying with you. And praying with you. And holding you so close. And crying with you. And praying.

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  12. Oy.
    My heart and hope are with you all.
    Hug LW for me.
    Then have the hubby hug you for me.
    Damn.

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  13. Anonymous9:46 AM

    I'm sorry your family and LW is having to do this again. Keeping you all in my thoughts and prayers.

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  14. I'm so sorry.

    I'd buy you a peppermint mocha if I were in the area.

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  15. Anonymous12:42 PM

    I am so sorry to hear this. I will continue to keep you, LW, and the rest of your family (and LW's doctors, come to think of it) in my thoughts & prayers. Strength & peace to you.

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  16. Anonymous3:19 PM

    So sorry. My heart goes out to you and yours.

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  17. Anonymous5:45 PM

    I've been praying and crying over your for a couple weeks now, and will continue to do both. The DRE-BFF scheduled me to preach at your church this summer; I hope to see you both then, and marvel at the Little Warrior's resiliance.

    (I won't repeat here my reply to DRE-BFF last night when she e-mailed me about the bad pathology report, but it was inadvertently funny--when you need a laugh, ask her about it.)

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  18. Dear - my earlier comment was kind of short, because I was crying for you. OK - I wish I could physically wrap you in a big hug. I am continuing to hold you and LW in the light, praying without ceasing...

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  19. I'm sorry doesn't even begin to grasp how I feel...

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  20. Thinking of you guys a lot...

    Best wishes from here...

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  21. my heart and prayers to you.

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